I think I’m stressed. I feel like I’m not one to stress or worry about things, but I do notice my behavior change, which is really just being moody and being annoyed that I’m being moody. Work frustrations probably have a role in this, including my rotation ending and figuring what to do next. I feel that that is also a facet of the larger question of what to do next. Intellectually, I would respond to really just take it one step at a time, because there is no way to truly know what will happen next. If you don’t know where you’re going, any road will take you there (been listening to The Streets lately). At the same time, I am not a risk taker and have a somewhat vague idea of my future plans. I think this is also part of feeling stuck, and being unwilling to unstick myself. It’s like I’m on the cusp of an existential crisis, but I do not have the personal fortitude to leap over the edge and truly eschew whatever constraints I believe I have.
I’ve noticed this mostly because I’ve been playing way too much Portal (GlaDos is so sassy in Portal 2), and reading in the middle of the night. Firefly is this weekend though, so I’m looking forward to this as a reprieve.