In Princeton? (at Cantor Arts Center at Stanford University)

Gave up waiting for the sunset. (at Half Moon Bay Beach! (:)

I was randomly discussing horror movies with a lab volunteer, and thought about this one to recommend which I watched on Netflix bumming off a friend’s account a few months ago. The cover is excessively sinister, and the film itself may be paced too slowly, but this movie definitely resonated with me in a quiet, sad way. It’s ostensibly about an estranged mother’s death and her estate that’s left to her son, who moved in to deal with her belongings. I think that theme carries out well throughout the movie, this undertone of melancholy and loneliness. It definitely reminds me of my relationship with my parents, which is not close at all, and now that I’m across the country, even more estranged. I’ve been feeling extremely bad that I’ve basically left them, though I haven’t been living at home for the last three years anyway, I went back home at least twice a month. I fear they feel abandoned, and my mother admitted to me as much that she feels really lonely. I thought that with my brother and I basically grown up, they would be happy and start travelling or going on vacations and stuff, which they did a few months ago, too. But it seems that they aren’t handle empty-nesting well. It’s not like we have an extremely close relationship in the first place, I’ve held my parents at arms-length since being able to, and I feel like it’s part of growing up to not be a moody teenager who ‘hates their parents’ anymore. But it’s difficult, especially in Chinese culture to do this sort of mending.

I don’t know, I’ve just been feeling sort of down lately and just need to wallow in it a bit.

the year of lost chinese new year memories

there was a chinese new years in elementary school many years ago where I got this book / kit with a cheapo camera that taught you about photography and how cameras worked. for whatever reason, I was the only one documenting the CNY festivities that year. super proud of taking all the pictures and finishing the roll, and the camera being a basic one without any frills, I manually rewound and watched the film roll back excitedly so that we can go to the photo store for developing. a few days later, they told us that the film was overexposed. who knew that you weren’t supposed to have the back open while rolling the film up (I recall ‘twas fascinating to watch)? either the instructions were horrible, I was super dense, or I just totally ignored the book.

Thought I found another cafe while playing tourist but apparently this building currently hosts Wharton and Mozilla.

Made a relief print.

I finally set up my computer again after more than two months of just laptop usage. It was hibernated from when I left NJ and the pages that loaded up were from February, when I was freaking out over the winter storm warnings for the northeast during my drive. I made it through alive but I still feel so transient in this city, as if I’m just an extended tourist.

I just moved to a more permanent place a week or two ago. I asked a friend for how I should arrange my room as she has interior design experience. This is one of the views with the ikea futon/bed up against the wall. My favorite part is probably the totoro on the bed.

Art from a postdoc because I “seem like someone who likes owls and cats.” Very true and I love it.

Sorry for the sound I made but the fog is rolling in really strong right now. So cold.

Doesn’t bring the party home”

I have never encountered this phrase except for in craigslist apartment posts in SF. Though I did not look too too hard in NJ, but still, what the hell? Not that I would want someone who ‘brings the party home’, but why is that the first thing on a list of requirements. Doesn’t ‘respectful’, ‘friendly’, or other myriad terms included in the postings cover that?

brb moving into my car as I cannot find a room / afford anything.

Science is long days at the lab followed by pomegranate cider and fried chicken. I like this. (at Magnolia Gastropub & Brewery)

threefootcrow:

Their butts keep getting higher

Though Bulbasaur is my favorite, I like the dynamism of this Venosaur. I’d love a print/sticker for my laptop…

(Reblogged from threefootcrow)